1Malaysia over Allah???

I guess everyone knows about the big hoo-haa that's been going around in the news,not to forget tons of people updating their status regarding this matter.

one word.

ALLAH.

Allah,which simply means God in Arabic.

This one word caused such a commotion in Malaysia,which I am now embarrassed to call my Home at this very moment. Youngsters setting up molotov cocktails in churches after the court overturned the ban of using this word in the "Herald" or if any,other christian newsletter,articles and what not. Just because of ONE word,this has caused much anger and rebellion in those insecure in what they believe in,leading them to stupidity.

57 years of independance and with our current Prime Minister trying to instill the 1Malaysia "trend" yet there are people this shallow who thinks that they are making a stand and leaving a mark in Malaysia about their rights of using "Allah". Is this is what Malaysia is slowly becoming? Only certain people can use this word?What next?Only certain people are able to have their say in Malaysia while others just sit in silence?This is NOT the Malaysia we hope to live in,well for me it isn't. Harmony and Peace in our country is slowly thinning if this sort of attitude continues.

More on Al-Jazeera: http://english.aljazeera.net/news/asia-pacific/2010/01/2010181572087252.html

Undeniably,sadness and dare I say,anger too are felt in the hearts of those affected by this matter. If your friend or relative or anyone you know attends any one of the churches burnt,lift them up and be with them.As for me,I do not know anyone from these churches.All I can do is to pray for them and write this blog. Remember,the Lord Jesus Christ is a FORGIVING God. Do not let anger creep into our hearts and have hatred towards these people. The very first time I found out about the attacks,it reminded me what Jesus said when He was crucified on the cross:

"Forgive them Father for they know not what they have done."

Our Father reigns above all,thus,we as His children have no reason to be afraid and be worried of those who opposes Him. When we are not able to do things with our own strength,He does it for us.There is no point being angry with such people. So for those reading this,I urge you to pray for our brothers and sisters affected by this attack,and for the Lord's light to shine in our beloved beautiful country.

SurpriseSurprise

Last friday was not the kind of day I expect to have at all.Well,besides the monthly visit. =.=""" Wasn't felling well that day and I was curling up in bed,tossing and turning,trying to get my mind out of the uncomfortable feeling.Tilll......I received a text from a friend,Mei Yee...

"You and Anthony got selected for the specials studies in Japan."

When I read the text at first,it didnt sink in.I was "occupied" with sleeping and resting,trying to make myself feel better.It was definitely a shocking surprised.Why??For one,when I registered my name for it,I js did it without havin the hope and excitement thinkin and believing tht I'll get selected for it.Two,I was busy thinking of the family trip to Melbourne in Feb my parents had already booked.So it would be kind of a waste of the air ticket if I do go over to Japan.Three,I was sort of confident that I wouldnt go because it would be financially heavy after all the "health chaos" going around in my family.

After resting for a moment and finally realising that I really was selected,I msged my mum and talked wif my parents and we cahtted sumore after tht.And as we were talking,I realised what actually had happened. Thinking back what I prayed for and how I acted towards this whole special studies thingy..This caught me.

"You see?u didnt think and worry too much bout whtr u'll get the spot.And u continued doing wat u do daily without reli hoping and expecting and wanting it from the flesh.But instead,You honestly,reli honestly did pray 'bout it.Pray not to have it,but prayed to Me that if it is My will for you to go,you will go.And if you were not selected,that I will gif u peace and comfort so that you wouldnt fret and be disappointed bout it.But to follow according to My timing."

It was a moment of self realisation.In my heart,I was "wow...now tht's how it feels to try not worrying bout things and leave it all to God.And it works!He actually does something without our understanding,but His.and His timing." That's wat I got from my Friday.Till now,the whole "going-to-Japan" thing hasnt reli sunk in yet. Honestly,I dont knw what I'm feeling bout it.I'm happy and definitely feel blessed to haf been selected.But at the same time...speechless.This is all oh-so-SURREAL.

I'm not saying that I've perfectly mastered the attitude of not worrying at all.But this incident definitely made me climb up a step in the process. Right now,I'm still unsure of the date we're going to Japan,but I'm reli prayin and hoping that it wouldnt clash wif my family trip to Melbourne early Feb.and definitely for FINANCIAL BREAKTHROUGH!!!At this moment,these does sometimes worries me.well,ok,most times. =.="" I'm learning Lord!hehhe =P

Matsumoto?

We'll see how things go and what's gonna happen this coming few weeks.My mum said surely thr's gonna be a way and timing for me to go for both places if it is God's will,yea?He blessed me to be selected.Surely it wouldnt go to waste. =)

Melbourne??

BOTH????

Right now,better just focus on studies and exams.

Hope some of you will be encouraged with this.Lotsa Love~

"Do not worry about tomorrow,for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own."-Matthew 6:34


FYI:Special studies in Japan is somewhat like an elective programme,studying in different departments be it in the BasicScience or Clinical Division.

A Neuro-Testimony

Remember my neurology exam I posted up few posts before this??So yea,the result came out today!!

AND I PASSED OVERALL!!!All thanks to MY PAPA J!!MY ROCK!!!Not because of me.Not my books.Well,fine..abit of me,abit of them books and abit to my frens.*hiaks!*BUT.........

THANKS!!TO MY LORD,MY FATHER IN HEAVEN,MY GUIDE,MY LORD JESUS CHRIST!!!

I've mention before that I reli,reli,reli didnt do well for my basic neurology exam rite..and I was reli worried that I wouldnt pass my neurology exam and had to come bck to Bali in the midst of my sem break.Think of how much my parents gotta spent on the extra return flight tickets and on immigration documents,especially whn I'm taking two flights to go back to Kch.Did I mention that every student studyin in Indonesia has to spent extra money?A minimum of Rp350,000 to get out of Indonesia for some re-entry permit + airport tax?I didnt???well,now you knw. =.='''

So anyhu....Results came out today and I PASSED!I prayed to God the whole time asking for a miracle that I'll get more than 80%,preferably 82%,for my clinical neurology exam to enable me to pass overall. A miracle because...well,ashamed to say this,but,I rarely get more than 80% in my theory exams..not never.just rarely.RARE. =S

But God answered my prayer!wootwoot!!I've prayed for 82%.And He gave me 82% for my clinical neuro!!Not more,not less.EXACTLY what I prayed for. Some of you would be thinking rite now "SO what??You didnt get more than that!And clinical neuro was freakin EASY!!!LOTSA ppl passed and got better overall results than u!!You sure its because of ur prayer??"
So what??I prayed for that,I GOT THAT!And I'm not comparing myself with others!I only wanted to pass overall!since I did reli reli bad in my basic neuro,I just wanted to pass!Got a 72% overall.And besides,thru that period,I've learnt something*wink*

The whole period from before the clinical exam till today,I've learn to TOTALLY trust God.Not 30%,50% or even 80% trust.I've learnt to trust in the Almighty God 100%!!Wasn't easy for me to do that since I always had doubts in my exams and relied in my own strength,my own capacity.We,as humans,ALWAYS tend to do and see things in our own perspective,no?A person who always rely on herself and in her opinion..sure is difficult to fully trust and rely on God sumtimes.

But it's through that time I finally understand and experience the true meaning of TOTAL 100% TRUST in GOD. To trust without doubt, without internal conflict,without negative thoughts constantly running thru ur mind.But instead have peace and leave it in His hands that God will bless me with what I prayed for.

I just wanna encourage u guys.If there's anyone of u feeling that at this moment,achieveing that goal or dream u've always wanted seems so so far-fetched,don't be afraid or worried.It's hard but do not let the negativity control your mind and emotions.I knw it's so easy to think negatively bout everything.But looking on the bright side of things and havin hope is what helps u thru the stress.But most importantly,"FIX YOUR EYES ON HIM" and continuously pray with total trust. Our God is a BIG GOD and he NEVER fails his children. Sumtimes what we asked for don't happen according to our way,but that doesnt mean good things ain't gonna happen.THings happen for a reason and things happen according to GOd's timing.Be patient. =)
Our Lord's thinking is way way larger than how we think because He sees the BIG picture of things in our life.We don't.We,humans,onli focused on the problem and the stained black dots in our life.

So there,do not be afraid to have BIG dreams and BIG goals. Come to Him and He'll always guide you thru to achieve them!

~xoxo~

Clinical neuro is over!

CLiniCaL NeuroloGy exam is finally over!!!another exam donE!

after busting my @$ off for this exam...sure am hoping for good result... ;) *praying,crossed fingers*

It has been a rather hectic week right after our 1st exam of this sem,musculoskeletal exam...2 wks later,we had our basic neurology exam...friggin onli 2WEEKS to study the whole basic:anatomy,physiology,histology,pharmacology,clinical pathology!!!!!!and 3 wks later,which is today,we had our clinical exam this morning.......finally it's done!phew!

unfortunately,I didn't do well at all for my basic neurology..*embarrased* =( *sob*sob*

Thank GOd though,both the basic and clinical neurology exam results are gonna b added together..35% basic and 65% clinical...so hopefully I'll score reli well to compensate fr my basic exam and pass overall!!

I think I'm being tested durin this period of time...to fully and totally trust GOd and leave it all to HIM..and I reli think that's what I'm doing..hehe so yea,we'll wait and see..

Our Lord God is a FAITHFUL God. He will provide all things that we NEED. When you have done your part,He will do His. Worry not about things u cannot control and leave it all to God!God Bless~

TATTOOS-A YES or A NO?

Good morning,people!*winks*Js woke up..hence,the morning greeting~ Js had my quiet time praying..and logged into my Facebook acc, only to find Ps.John Finkelde status: "my tatto post has even got Fletch writing poetry!" (Ps. John is an australian christian pastor residing in Perth and is one of the pastors of Christian City Church (C3) Hepburn Heights.) Whn I saw this, got me thinking this must mean that there's a blog entry in his website,rite?check out http://finkeldejohn.blogspot.com

So I visited his site and read bout the tattoo-entry. He wrote that he publish that post after reading an entry of a Singaporean pastor, the very famous Ps. Kong Hee from City Harvest Church, bout tattoos...found it very interesting.....check out www.konghee.com for more insights~



Tattoos??To get one or not to get one has always been my question.Are christians allowed to have tattoos? Have been questioning that for a long time now and am still thinking bout it. Is tattoing a sin?My dad thinks that getting a tattoo is not right and that a christian shudnt b gettin tatts. I think there are quite a number of parents who think so as well. Others think it's no biggie and it's okay havin them. And some don't even bother.


Personally, I think it's no harm for a christian to have tatts as long as those tatts aren't the kind that's "devilish-looking", "death symbols", "gangsta-looking" or any othr symbols that are obviously not "christian-like" for that matter. Tattoos are ways of self expression and also a personal reminder. Having that specific tatt has got to be meaningful. I believe that it's better we don't haf tattoos if its jus for the fun of it or js cz ur frens have them and you could show them off. And I reckon it's a BIG NO-NO if a gal/guy gets a tattoo for their othr half when they're not married,especially tattoos with the name of their bf/gf. What happens if the couple breaks up?Even worse if the breakup was ugly. That tattoo is definitely gonna remind u of that relationship u want to forget.And it will hurt. It's not that I'm sayin every relationship isn't gonna work out.Afterall,who can predict the future rite?I just think it's not that smart,is all. TATTOOS ARE PERMANENT(albeit removal with laser can be done bt are costly). THINK.PONDER.MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION.

With this, I bid u farewell, for now... =) What do you think bout tattoos?Feel free to leave your mark with comments.lotsa lurve~


psst...psst..me thinks me want to haf an "angel" word written like a shape of a heart or a small cross tattoo at me ankle and another at me right upper bck...*thinkin*